I think a lot about how much energy I've expended on these stupid grudges for years at a time and it actually scares me to think that if I don't change my ways, somehow this will rub off on my son. I'm so glad that I stopped the bullshit and started to realize that while he's so young. I don't want him to make snap judgments. I don't want him to hold on to anger for years, and have it slowly eat away at him until he's sitting alone wondering where all his friends went. There is so much good to focus on, even if things don't turn out in your favor. People fuck up. They just do, it doesn't necessarily mean they have to be exiled from your world, especially if it's so obvious that the love was there, and always had been.
So I suppose realizing all that is good in and of itself, but should I bother trying to make things civil, or do I just let it go? Because that's the part that has been so difficult for me. I almost feel like if I just got it out of my system, I'd be better equipped to let it go. Or maybe I'd have my friend back. I'd gladly take either outcome.
Have you been in a situation like this? What did you do?