Things & Stuff...

Wow, I can't believe it's been a month since I've posted...

I'm finally starting to come to grips with the fact that I'm going through some shit, internally. It took a bad dream Saturday night (the first dream I'd had in weeks) about my Grandma Judy literally telling me, "You're depressed, honey," and giving me a huge hug while I cried. Ugh. I can't even figure it out for myself? Lol.

As some of you know, I started taking a generic of Celexa for major depression and anxiety almost a year ago, with a TON of success. About ten months later, and 30 mg more per day, it's starting to fail me. I knew this would happen. I didn't expect this stuff to change my life forever, but it's easy to fall into that kind of thinking when it's worked so well for so long. I started to notice extreme fatigue (more than usual, for those of you who know me IRL), my trichotillomania is out of control and I'm drinking about 5 out of every 7 nights. I eat past the point of being full. My housecleaning is falling behind. I'm normally super obsessive about that. These are all deadringers for depression and anxiety for me. The weirdest part? I don't feel depressed. I know it's the medication, but I am so afraid to come off of it. I missed a few days last month due to my refills running out and my regular nurse practitioner moving away. The withdrawal symptoms were terrifying, to say the least.

I know I need to go back to counseling. It just started to get so expensive, because I really feel that I need it at least twice monthly to get any kind of result. So I'm in a pickle. Ughhhh. I don't want to go crazy, but I don't want to run us into debt, either. I feel pretty lost at the moment :c

So yeah, that's where I'm at right now. Haven't been doing too much in the way of shoe-scouting or anything like that. Just kinda trying to hold it together.

I don't wanna be a downer, either, I just don't want to leave everybody hanging. I love you guys, and I hope you stick around for when stuff gets better <3

Knockoff Ninja #51 - Jeffrey Campbell "Coltrane" pt. 2!

Jeffrey Campbell "Coltrane" in Black Distressed available at Farfetch ($161.60), Jildor Shoes ($180.00), Karmaloop ($184.00), Nasty Gal ($185.00), Nordstrom ($199.95)

Qupid "Valiant" in Black available at Tilly's ($39.99), Make Me Chic ($40.50), Go Jane ($43.20)

Also available in Oxblood at UrbanOG and Go Jane!

Looks like I spoke too soon! About a week after my first post on the creeper Coltrane dupes, THESE CAME OUT. GAH! I'm still eyeballing them, and have been for weeks. But now that I have the creeper version in black, I don't know whether I should get the Oxblood or the black! CONUNDRUM!

What do you guys think? I'm dying, here!

Sorry about the extended absence! Trying to get my bloggy butt in gear, been busy with other stuff :D

Knockoff Ninja #50 - Jeffrey Campbell "Everly"

Jeffrey Campbell "Everly" in Black available at Nasty Gal ($188.00), Shop Akira ($194.90), Nordstrom ($194.95), Lori's Shoes ($194.95), Envi Shoes ($194.95), Jildor Shoes ($195.00), Urban Outfitters ($195.00), Karmaloop ($195.00), Need Supply ($195.00), Acrimony ($195.00), Shopbop ($195.00)

Cut It Out Buckle Boots in Black available at Go Jane ($44.20)

The differences between these shoes aren't even worth pointing out. These are too similar to nit-pick! Go grab 'em up!!!

Happy shoe shopping!

Knockoff Ninja #49 - Jeffrey Campbell "Coltrane"

Jeffrey Campbell "Coltrane" in Black Distressed available at Farfetch ($161.60), Jildor Shoes ($180.00), Karmaloop ($184.00), Nasty Gal ($185.00), Nordstrom ($199.95)

Wild Diva Lounge "Credence-11" in Black available at Make Me Chic ($32.90), UrbanOG ($33.20), Go Jane ($35.10)

I'm going to be totally honest here, I ordered these the same day I came across them. I've been waiting SO LONG for a quality, affordable Coltrane/Balenciaga dupe, and these are about as good as they're gonna get! I ADORE the creeper sole, probably way more than the original chunky rubber heel! I'm expecting these tomorrow, so I'll definitely append this post with a detailed review right after I get 'em :D

The Credence-11 is also available in a GORGEOUS Oxblood! GO GET SOME!

EDIT 7-26: Got 'em! They look great in person, and appear to be great quality. Both buckles are adjustable, which is good because they felt a little loose at first, even on my slightly wide feet. True to size. Really stoked to wear them out!

Happy shoe shopping!

Knockoff Ninja #48 - Jeffrey Campbell "Succession"

Jeffrey Campbell "Succession" in Black/White exclusive to Karmaloop SOLD OUT! (retailed $215.00)

Gabina in Black/White available at Make Me Chic ($58.00), AMI Clubwear ($66.99)

Super close, almost identical. My only gripe is that the platform isn't hidden/covered! GAH! If not for that, this shoe would *almost* be an exact replica. Still, good news for people looking for the now sold out Succession who are willing to compromise a bit.

I don't actually care for these too much, but they were way too close to not do a write up! I love the Damsel base to death, but not really in the form of an athletic-esque shoe.

Do you dig 'em?

Bre's Week/Instagrams 7-12-13

This has nothing to do with anything, but Terry and I can't stop laughing about it.

GAHHHH IT HAS BEEN FOREVER SINCE I'VE DONE ONE OF THESE. For that I am sorry. For some reason just thinking about doing them fills me with contempt, but as soon as I actually start typing, they go really fast and are a lot of fun. Huh? So I'm just gonna try to FORCE myself to continue with them. Ha!

We've missed a few weeks, but luckily you guys haven't missed out on much. Except for my badass DIY punkrock jacket. Oooooo that was awesome. Okay. I had this acid wash denim jacket that a friend gave me hanging in my closet for forever. Its presence was starting to get to me, but before it went in the donation box, I decided it could totally be revived. I got a bunch of turquoise fiber-reactive dye from Chev (who makes rad lace bibs with it!), and ordered a couple baggies of studs from studsandspikes.com because I couldn't decide which ones I'd want to use. I finally went with the English Punk 77 studs because I wanted something spike-esque, but I have a kid, so I didn't want to maim him with my hugs. I'm sure you can understand :P But here's what I came up with! I love it SO HARD and it gets so many freaking compliments!

We took in Terry's old dog Sidney for a while, before deciding it wasn't going to work out because of Terry's allergies :c He only went back to Terry's parents' house, but I miss snuggling with him a lot. WAHHHHH!

Been building up a badass makeup kit (my old one was lost in the move :c) for a wedding I get to do makeup for next month! I'm so excited! Practice run is tomorrow afternoon!

Jade was cute...

Last Saturday I went to my dear friend Chelsey's bachelorette party, which was SUCH A BLAST. Had brunch at her bridesmaid's house, then we rented a boat on Lake Union! GAHHHH such awesome times, listening to terrible early '00s pop and drinking beer. Then I met up with Terry and Jade at Terry's cousin Angela's wedding in Mountlake Terrace, which was beautiful. Awesome and EXHAUSTING weekend.

Alright! That's all I've got in me for this week :D See you guys next week! Have an awesome weekend! <3

Knockoff Ninja #47 - Taylor Says "Sharkie"

Taylor Says "Sharkie" in Grey available at Heels ($199.99)

Shark Pumps in Grey available at GoJane ($34.90), UrbanOG ($35.40)

I find it SO HILARIOUS that I had this post sitting in my drafts for about a week, and all of the sudden Kat Von D posts an Instagram of her wearing these shoes (and it looks like they run a bit big!). The DUPES, though, not the Taylor Says ones! How crazy! Imagining Kat Von D buying shoes that cost less than $100 makes me feel funny inside <3

If it were up to me to choose just by the facial expression of the shark, I'd pick the dupes, too. He looks more angsty and I love it :D

These also come in mint and a light peachy pink! Snatch 'em up before KvD's rabid fans do!

Happy shoe shopping!